Letting you go is one of saying,
I LOVE YOU!!!!

After a long nine months, yesterday I have confronted my heart again…………

I have left her alone on one dreadful night when she refused to walk with me, being a part of my mind and body,

Yesterday I again meet her not on the way but by moving back to her,

After a day long stay with her, again we confronted each other face to face as I needed some answer from her

And here started a conflict between mind and my heart, me listening and observing them silently……….

I asked her how you can be so selfish, that you called me back to be part of a moment which I never wanted to be

You were aware of the pain I got, still you called me back to face it again, how can you do this………

She replied I knew the pain you got, but it was not me who created this situation, it happened

All just I wanted was not have a demise end, so I called you back to be part of me!!!!

I said, here also you made him satisfied, by being good to him, again proved him worth by giving respect to him,

But do you have forget the insult he gave me, the way he publically called me selfish, the way he rescued by putting all the blames on my head?

She replied it all happened coz the situation demanded it, may be that was the only ultimate way he had in front of him!!!

I asked what is the need of all when he didn’t showed a bit of mercy for your love also, he insulted it also publically,

Have you forget the verdict said by him, that he never loved you, it was you who was behind him,

She simply replied and said, it is you who can go through the words but not me; I can only go through feelings

Yes it’s true he said, but I know how much he loved me, coz I felt it, as it was gifted to me by his heart

It was a relation of two hearts, so we know how we felt, the mind and bodies were just a mere part of it!!!

I just looked at her and smiled and asked then how can be a heart so cold that it forgets a care of humanity…….

He didn’t showed a patience to talk to you when you were facing the dreadful pain of death near you, wasn’t he was aware of it???

How can be a loving heart so cold that even today not single time he asked you “how are you”??

She replied he may not have asked me how I am or may not have talked to me when I was in worst condition

I know, that there won’t be single moment when he wouldn’t have prayed for my soon recovery in his silence,

Today may not he have asked how I am but every time he concludes with “take care”, isn’t it enough for a heart to understand!!!

I asked her what excuse you hold for the tears he have given to my family, what wrong did they did with him,

They treated him like a son, cared for him, gave respect to him but at the end he made them cry, why??

At least his heart would have said the truth following his decision to move ahead, but he lied, even refused to recognize

What excuse you hold for this??? As you were so attached to his heart, you must be having an answer for it, reply me now

With silence my heart stood in front of me, and just said I don’t know, it’s the only thing I don’t know about him……….

And tears started rolling down from eyes and I felt the immense pain inside my body and I said please come with me, I need you

She just turned away, I went close to her and said please come with me, I don’t have a worth without you……

Can’t you see my pain, the roughness I m holding now, what is the existence a body and mind have without a heart in it??

I rushed back when you called me, stood with you but now I request you to come with me, I have to move ahead!!!

She just refused to me and said I walked with you for 22 years, and acted as per your demand but now I want to be alone,

I have been hurt from deep down and I need to be recovered, I want loneliness, I can’t walk with you in that crowd

I will sit here where his heart have left me, just to make myself feel that I am not alone, coz his presence can make me happy again

His support can make me stand again and strong enough again to fight this world for you; his love can only recover me again

So I need to be here coz here only I can feel him, his heart is with me to talk, hold n love me!!!!!

I said, once when you asked me to move ahead, I went away without saying anything coz I know you had your guilt and pain to recover

But today time and god have listened to your prayers and freed you from the guilt, enough you repent

Can’t you come with me now??? What will you get by sitting here; he will never look back to you, will never!!!

She smiled and said I m not waiting for his return back coz he was true we don’t have a future together………

I m just sitting here, coz I know one day I will be strong enough and even I know may not he come back but……

His heart will pass this way in search of me and that day I should be here to say him that I m happy and he should move on…….

To make him feel that I m strong enough, and can live without him and my eyes just want to see him happily settled with his new love!!!

When he will move on with a smile to his newly awaiting happy life, I will turn back to come to you……

To be yours forever but till that I need to be here……….and with silence she sat there facing his cold attitude and remembering his teachings

Finally I moved on with tears in my eyes as even my mind knows the real truth, that it also loves him

Apart from all pains still it loves him; otherwise it won’t have turned back with a feel of his presence

And even my soul loves him otherwise it won’t have left his companion, the heart to be alone in the darkness and would have moved on……..

Coz it knows that ultimately “I HAVE TO LET HIM GO AND FOR THAT I HAVE TO MOVE ON”!!!!