UNFRAMED VERDICTS

I stood there in the doorway,begging you not you leave,
but you looked at me and said nothing,no explanations,no reasoning,nothing.

I was shattered to pieces still I gathered to stand to simply wait for you!!!

You said you lost the trust on me; I laid you hurting your emotions ever

It’s true I laid you, a mistake which can’t be forgiven, and shouldn’t be also

It was my foolishness that I asked for forgiveness, my selfishness to live a day more with you!!!

In me it lies as a guilt which can’t be washed away with enough regrets,

Even I didn’t want the time to heal it, coz I want to live my guilt to its extent

It’s true my heart knows why it laid you; it had its own reason to be called valid

But the truth today my soul even didn’t want to listen my heart’s confession……..

Why to listen, when thousand times my soul has forced my heart to say you the truth…….

Million times my soul has forced my heart to say out my fears, which I was seeing ……..

To make you part of my worries, my insecurities, my imbalances, my stupid predictions………

Every time I came to speak, I felt the darkness surrounding your life and you hiding with a smile

And I moved back promising of a next day try…….continued till we got separated!!!

Today while sitting alone and thinking of the silent past, I wish………..

I could have ever said you, how every heart that loved you, hated me being a part of you

How those lips which showered love in front of you, have showered curses in front of me

How………….I wish I could have been able to write my unsaid words in this sheet of paper

May be my heart can never; coz may be it knows its sacrifices are not worth enough……

Or maybe it knows, if it confess out the secret it holds………………

Then some double verdict people will be exposed in the lime light

Some hearts that holds proud in having you as companion today will be hurt and hated forever

But finally again my heart ask the same question why????

After all it’s again you and you who are going to get hurt!!! No one else then why??

Let it be a part of my conspiracy, my selfishness, my illusions……….

Let it be unsaid ever, a silent part of your unforgettable love………

As love needs no reason to be loved, so are you for me!!!!