OCT 27..........

The night which rained heavily not outside my house but inside my house……..

With tears, with bleeding pain, a complete night spent in a mourning of my feelings!!!

Like a dead body laid my dreams, wishes, I respect and my purity………..

The room filled with the smoke of betrayal, hairiness, anger and self cursing!!!

Sometimes consoling myself then sometimes looking deep into my parent’s eyes, night passed……

Entire night my room was lighted yet me in a complete dark…..in a thought why???

After 20 yrs again I tried to make myself comfortable in between my parent’s warmth…..

But as said you can get your soul’s peace in your deeds only not even in your mother’s lap!!!

So was me……every moment came in front of my eyes, every harsh words turned out my heart……

Every lies said by someone pinged into my heart and asked a simple question how???

Why?? How?? When??? Accompanied me not only that night but till today!!!!

I hated and cursed to the moment I took the decision of accompanying this pain for my lifetime

I hated each and every moment I spent, just to see this dreadful night!!!!

I hated all the sweet words said to me, all the love I got……I even hated the warmth of a touch.

The night when I saw for the first time tears in my dad’s eyes, the red tears!!!

I cursed down myself with all worst things just to give a bit of peace in return of the red tears it saw….

I felt ashamed of myself, for what all I did and wondered how can I??? How can I???

Finally with traces of few memories, I got up to live my guilt, to repay for the red tears!!!

Oct 27……. A night with a vintage dream, a dream which let never comes in anyone’s sleep……

“A night which made my so much of losses that can be never regained in my life!!!

A black night with unpleasant wind and dreadful sounds of thundering…….

A night which I can never forget even in my great achievements or in my deepest fall.”